Rebuilding the "House"

It was all good in the beginning. I started making beats & producing in 2018/2019. It was fun and exciting to really dive into something that made me happy. I was just glad to have this new outlet and share it with the world. I felt like the world need to hear my music. The people needed something refreshing. And for a while, that was the case. But, as time progresses, the likes start to dwindle. The plays and views go down massively. You just begin to feel like people don't care about what you have to offer anymore. That affected me greatly. I can honestly look within myself and say that as I write this blog post.

That happy feeling I had started to wear off. I started to feel like I "had to make it." Felt like I had to compete and find new ways to reinvent myself in an everchanging social media climate. I just want the music to speak. I don't do the gimmicks. I'm still navigating this today. That type of pressure changes anything. The creativity wasn't coming to me as easy as it was when I first started.

But, me being who I am, I continued to persevere through it. It would have it's ups and downs. Feels like more downs than ups. I would be on high at one moment and then the next moment, a low happens that catches me off guard and kind of shakes my faith in what I'm doing. It's a lot to deal with. Especially, when you're trying to make a name for yourself. So, I begin to spiral a bit. Just trying to grasp for something. I grew angry. I lost trust in people and faith in my calling and purpose. So, I take a break.

Now, we're here in this moment. I think it's divine. My brother MidiMarc reached out to me. I wont share the contents of our conversation. But, it gave me the reassurance and confirmation I needed to continue on. Essentially, rebuilding. I don't know where this will go. But, I feel how I felt in 2019 when I first started. New Instagram page. New website. Just starting over altogether. I hope that you come along on this ride with me. If you been here from the beginning, I appreciate you for staying. I hope that my growth and perseverance inspires you.

P.S., I have been working on music. I have been sitting on a whole album. I wasn't sure If I was going to release it or not. But, I just want to share music I've been sitting on. Whether I feel it's complete to my standards. Hope you like it. I still may release at a later date. But, it's whatever.

Lord Have Mercy, II | LISTEN HERE

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